feeling

i'm home and the feeling is getting worse.

sometimes i pitying my self,sometimes noone cares about you,noone cares about you're problem,noone even want to know you or get to know you,or even sometimes people spit on our problems.So.....why do we even lived?i mean noone cares,noone believe i know right now my feelings are totally crushed so i said some words that i shouldn't said.But think about it sometimes you don't even want to lived,you'd rather to fall a sleep forever till death or better you wish that you never born.I wanna be with the one i need right now,but i'd like to call it magic if he really sit here next beside me i know forever he would never come to me.Imagine that person is the one you loved the most,your crushes .

Or maybe you're already in that relationship but you're a miles away from him.

How's that feel?

that feeling is all over me this month,and it seems like i can't tell anyone personally i only can write it in this blog to share it with you.I don't want to cry all over again and i don't want to be dissapointed all over again,it hurts.I was tense when you leave me or whatever you leave me for it hurts.

You're probably say "yeah whatever its your problem not mine" or "i would die if i be you,such a poor life" yes someone actually said that to me how roud .We all know that feeling will come to us ,you'll never plan it or even think about it.This time that feeling is really crushed me and i think its gonna be a while till i recover from it .I'm waiting for your advice it makes my day :))) i know i have fabulous friends and i believe they will help me get through with this one.Do i sound too emotional?i hope i am because i am in a super-duper emotional condition.I hope i can pass math test with this feelings all over me i only cross my fingers.

thankyou for reading i really need some good advice right now.My eyes are sore and i don't want to cry again,a good vacation with friends sounds awesome!i'm waiting for it.